Buku laposachedwapa la wolemba Martin Ralchevski "Osatseka maso" ali kale pa msika wa mabuku (© wofalitsa "Edelweiss", 2022; ISBN 978-619-7186-82- 6). Bukhuli ndi kutsutsana kwa pemphero ndi njira yachikhristu ya moyo masiku ano.
Martin Ralchevski anabadwira ku Sofia, Bulgaria, pa March 4, 1974. Anamaliza maphunziro ake ku yunivesite ya Sofia "St. Kliment Ohridsky” makamaka mu Theology ndi Geography. Anayamba kulemba atabwerako ku Mexico ku 2003, komwe adakhala miyezi itatu akuchita nawo gawoli filimu Troy, monga chowonjezera. M’malo apadera ndi odabwitsa ameneŵa, m’tauni ya Cabo San Lucas, California, analankhula ndi anthu akumeneko ndi kumvetsera nkhani zawo zambiri zapadera ndi zochitika. "Kumeneko, ndidamva kuti ndikufuna kulemba buku ndikuwuza nkhani zosamvetsetseka zomwe zidakhalapo mpaka pano zomwe ndidamva kuchokera kwa iwo", amatero. Ndipo umo ndi momwe buku lake loyamba la "Endless Night" lidakwaniritsidwa. M'mabuku ake onse chiyembekezo, chikhulupiriro ndi positivity ndi mitu yotsogolera. Posakhalitsa, anakwatira ndipo m’zaka zotsatira anakhala atate wa ana atatu. "Mosapeweka, kuyambira pamenepo, ndalemba mabuku ena khumi", akutero. Zonse zinasindikizidwa ndi nyumba zazikulu zosindikizira za ku Bulgaria ndipo panali ndipo akupitirizabe kukhala owerenga odzipereka komanso okhulupirika. Ralchevski anathirira ndemanga ponena za izi: “Ndicho mwachiwonekere chifukwa chake, kwa zaka zambiri, ndalimbikitsidwa ndi osindikiza anga, oŵerenga ndi otsogolera ena kulembanso masewero angapo a mafilimu osonyezedwa ozikidwa m’mabuku anga. Ndinamvera maganizo amenewa ndipo mpaka pano, kuwonjezera pa mabukuwa, ndalembanso mafilimu asanu a m’mafilimu, amene ndikukhulupirira kuti achitika posachedwapa.”
Mabuku omwe adasindikizidwa ndi Martin Ralchevski mpaka pano ndi 'Endless Night', 'Forest Spirit', 'Demigoddess', '30 Pounds', 'Fraud', 'Emigrant', 'Antichrist', 'Soul', 'Meaning of Life', ' Muyaya', ndi 'Musatseke Maso Anu'. Buku lake lomaliza linalandiridwa bwino kwambiri ndi otsutsa ndi owerenga. Inalandira ndemanga zabwino kwambiri kuchokera kwa anthu osiyanasiyana omwe adalemba nawo mabuku, komanso mphoto zambiri ndi zolemekezeka. “Izi zinandilimbikitsa kukhulupirira kuti bukuli lingakhalenso losangalatsa kwa oŵerenga a ku United States. Ndicho chifukwa chake ndinaganiza zopempha mpikisanowu, kuti ndisindikize buku la Chibugariya m'Chingelezi, ndendende ndi bukuli ", akutero Ralchevski.
Ndemanga za buku la "Osatseka Maso Anu" lolemba Martin Ralchevski
Mbali yaikulu ya bukuli imachokera ku nthano yosadziwika bwino ya phiri la Strandja, lomwe lero limakumbukiridwa ndi anthu okalamba a m'deralo komanso ndi anthu achikulire omwe ali m'matauni ozungulira nyanja yakuda. Nthano imanena kuti kumayambiriro kwa zaka makumi asanu ndi atatu zapitazo, mnyamata wina dzina lake Peter wa mumzinda wa Ahtopol anakumana ndi sewero loipa kwambiri.
Peter ndi wodziwika bwino m'tauni yaing'onoyo chifukwa cha kulumala kwake. Makolo ake, Ivan ndi Stanka, ayenera kupita kukagwira ntchito ku Burgas (mzinda waukulu wapafupi) ndi kusiya mwana wawo wamkazi wazaka khumi, Ivana, m’manja mwake. Petro anali ndi zaka khumi ndi zisanu ndi zitatu. Ndi nthawi yophukira, koma nyengoyo inali yotentha kwa nthawi imeneyo, ndipo Peter aganiza zotengera Ivana kunyanja kuti akasambe. Amapita kugombe lakutali lamiyala kuti asaonedwe ndi aliyense. Anagona m’mphepete mwa nyanja, ndipo mkaziyo analowa m’nyanja. Komabe, nyengo imawonongeka mwadzidzidzi, mafunde aakulu akuwonekera, ndipo Ivana amamira.
Makolo awo akabwerako n’kudziwa zimene zinachitika, amakwiya kwambiri. Mu mkwiyo wake, Ivan (bambo a Peter) akuthamangitsa kuti ayese kumupha. Peter akuthamangira ku Strandja ndipo anasochera. Kusakasaka dziko kumalengezedwa, ngakhale palibe amene angamupeze. Iye amabisidwa ndi m’busa wakumaloko kumapiri, amene amamusamalira mwachidule. Patapita nthawi, Peter anafika ku Bachkovo monastery. Kumeneko, chaka chimodzi pambuyo pake, iye analandira umonke ndipo anakhala moyo wokhwima wa amonke, wobisika kwa maso a anthu, m’chipinda chapansi pa nyumba ya amonke, akumabwerezabwereza misozi: “Mulungu, chonde, musandiŵerengere ine tchimo ili. Ili ndi pemphero lake lachinsinsi; zomwe amalapa nazo imfa ya mlongo wake. Kubisala kwake kumayendetsedwa ndi mantha enieni kuti akagwidwa, adzatumizidwa kundende. Motero, polira, kudzinyoza ndi kusala kudya, mothandizidwa ndi amonke achikulire, amathera chaka china ali yekhayekha ndi kudzipatula. Pambuyo pa chidziwitso chosadziwika, gulu la chitetezo cha boma linafika ku Holy Monastery ndikuyamba kufufuza m'malo onse amonke. Peter akukakamizika kuthawa kuti asamuzindikire. Iye amapita kummawa. Amathamanga usiku ndipo amabisala masana. Chotero, pambuyo pa ulendo wautali ndi wotopetsa, akufikanso kudera lakutali kwambiri ndi lopanda anthu la Strandja Mountain. Kumeneko akukhala mumtengo wadzenje nayamba kukhala ndi moyo wodzimana, osaleka kubwereza pemphero lake la kulapa. Mwanjira imeneyi, adasintha pang'onopang'ono kuchoka kwa amonke wamba kukhala wochita zozizwitsa.
Mutu watsopano umatsatira, momwe ntchitoyi imasunthira ku Sofia, likulu la Bulgaria. Kutsogolo kuli wansembe wachinyamata dzina lake Paulo. Ali ndi mlongo wawo yemwe ali ndi mapasa dzina lake Nikolina yemwe akudwala khansa ya m'mimba. Nikolina wagona kunyumba, pa chithandizo cha moyo. Popeza Pavel ndi Nikolina mapasa, ubale pakati pawo ndi wamphamvu kwambiri. Choncho, Pavel sangavomereze kuti amutaya. Akupemphera pafupifupi usana, atagwira dzanja la mlongo wake uku akubwerezabwereza kuti: “Usatseke maso ako! Inu mudzakhala ndi moyo. Osatseka maso ako!” Komabe, mwayi wopulumuka wa Nikolina umachepetsa tsiku lililonse.
Zochitazo zimabwerera ku Ahtopol. Kumeneko, pabwalo la nyumbayo, kuli makolo a Peter okalamba—Ivan ndi Stanka. Kwa zaka zambiri, Ivan amanong'oneza bondo kuti anatumiza mwana wake ndipo sangasiye kudzizunza. Mnyamata wina akufika kwa iwo mwadzidzidzi, amene akuwauza kuti alenje awona mwana wawo Petro mkati mwa phiri la Strandja. Makolo ake anadabwa kwambiri. Nthawi yomweyo amanyamuka pagalimoto kupita kuphiri. Stanka amakhala ndi nseru chifukwa choyembekezera. Galimoto inayima ndipo Ivan akupitiriza yekha. Ivan akufika kudera limene Petro anawonedwa ndikuyamba kufuula kuti: “Mwana…Peter. Dziwonetseni nokha… Chonde.” Ndipo Petro akuwonekera. Kukumana pakati pa abambo ndi mwana ndi kolimbikitsa. Ivan ndi wokalamba wofooka, ali ndi zaka 83, ndipo Peter ndi wotuwa komanso wotopa ndi moyo wake wovuta. Ali ndi zaka 60. Petro akuuza atate wake, “Inu simunataye konse, ndipo potsirizira pake munandipeza ine. Koma sindingathe kuukitsa Ivana kwa akufa.” Petulo anakhumudwa kwambiri. Anagona pansi, akuwoloka manja ake n’kuuza bambo ake kuti: “Ndikhululukireni! Kwa chilichonse. Ine pano! Ndipheni." Ivan wakale anagwada pamaso pake ndi kulapa. “Ndi vuto langa. Undikhululukire mwana wanga,” akulira motero. Petro anadzuka. Chochitikacho ndi chopambana. Iwo akukumbatirana ndikutsazikana.
Zomwezo zimabwereranso kwa Sofia. Kumva kowawa kwa imfa yomwe ikubwera kale ikuzungulira Nikolina wodwala. Bambo Pavel amalira ndikupemphera mosalekeza. Tsiku lina madzulo, mnzake wapamtima wa Pavel anamuuza zakukhosi kwake za wamonke wodabwitsa yemwe amakhala kwinakwake ku phiri la Strandja. Pavel akuganiza kuti iyi ndi nthano, koma adaganiza zoyesa kupeza hermit. Panthawi imeneyi, mlongo wake Nikolina akupuma. Kenako, m’kuthedwa nzeru kwake, Pavel anapereka thupi lake lopanda moyo kwa amayi awo ndi kupita ku phiri la Strandja. Panthaŵiyi amakeyo akumuitana monyoza kuti wapemphera kwa mlongo wake kwa nthaŵi yaitali kuti, “Chonde usatseke maso ako,” koma tsopano wafa, ndipo tsopano anena chiyani? Kodi apitiriza bwanji kupemphera? Ndiyeno Paulo anaima, akulira, ndi kuyankha kuti palibe mphamvu yomuletsa ndi kuti adzapitiriza kukhulupirira kuti pali chiyembekezo choti adzakhala ndi moyo. Mayiyo akuganiza kuti mwana wake wasokonezeka maganizo ndipo akuyamba kumulira. Kenako Paulo anaganizira zimene mayi ake anamuuza n’kuyamba kupemphera motere: “Ayi, sinditaya mtima. Inu mudzakhala ndi moyo. Chonde, tsegulani maso anu!” Kuyambira pamenepo Paulo anayamba kubwerezabwereza mosalekeza m’malo mwa pemphero lakuti “Musatseke maso anu” mosiyana nalo, lakuti: “Tsegulani maso anu! Chonde, tsegulani maso anu!”
Ndi pemphero latsopanoli pansonga ya lilime lake, ndipo pambuyo pa zovuta zazikulu, iye amatha kupeza m'mphepete mwa phiri. Msonkhano wapakati pa awiriwa ndi wodabwitsa. Paulo akuona Petro choyamba ndipo akuyandikira kwa iye mwakachetechete. Munthu woyerayo akugwada ndi manja ake atakwezedwa kumwamba ndipo m’misozi akubwerezabwereza kuti: “Mulungu, chonde mundiwerengere ine tchimo ili…” Paulo nthawi yomweyo amamvetsetsa kuti iyi si pemphero loyenera. Chifukwa chakuti palibe munthu wamba amene angapemphere kuti tchimo lake liikidwe kwa iye, koma m’malo mwake, kuti akhululukidwe. Zimanenedwa kwa owerenga kuti kusintha kumeneku kudachitika chifukwa cha kufooka kwa malingaliro ndi umbuli wa hermit. Chotero, pemphero lake loyambirira lakuti: “Mulungu, musandiŵerengere ine tchimo ili” pang’onopang’ono, m’kupita kwa zaka, kukhala “Mulungu, mundiŵerengere ine tchimo ili.” Pavel sakudziwa kuti hermit sadziwa kulemba ndi kuwerenga ndipo watsala pang'ono kupita kumalo apululu ndi osowa alendo. Koma pamene awiriwa anakumana maso ndi maso, Paulo anazindikira kuti akuyang’anizana ndi woyera mtima. Wosadziwa, wosaphunzira, wodekha mwamalingaliro, komabe woyera! Pemphero lolakwika likuonetsa Paulo kuti Mulungu sayang’ana nkhope yathu, koma pamtima pathu. Pavel akulira pamaso pa Peter ndikumuuza kuti mlongo wake Nikolina anamwalira tsiku lomwelo ndipo adachokera ku Sofia kudzapempha mapemphero ake. Kenako, Paulo anachita mantha kwambiri, Petro akunena kuti palibe chifukwa chopemphera chifukwa Mulungu sadzamva zopempha zake. Komabe, Paulo sanagonje, koma akupitirizabe kumupempha, mosasamala kanthu za chirichonse, kupempherera mlongo wake wakufayo kuti akhale ndi moyo. Koma Petro anaumirirabe. Potsirizira pake, m’chisoni chake ndi kusoŵa chochita, Paulo analumbirira kwa iye motere: “Mukanakhala ndi mlongo wanu amene anakonda mlongo wanga monga momwe ine ndimakondera mlongo wanga ndipo akanatha kum’bweza kuchokera kudziko lina, mukanandimvetsa ndi kundithandiza ine! Mawu awa akugwedeza Petro. Amakumbukira imfa ya mlongo wake wamng'ono Ivana ndipo amamvetsetsa kuti Mulungu, kupyolera mu kukumana kumeneku, pambuyo pa zaka zambiri za kulapa, potsiriza akuyesera kumuchotsa. Kenako Petulo anagwada n’kufuula kwa Mulungu kuti achite chozizwitsa n’kubweza mzimu wa mlongo wake wa Paulo ku dziko la amoyo. Izi zimachitika cha m'ma XNUMX:XNUMX koloko masana. Pavel amamuthokoza ndikuchoka ku phiri la Strandja.
Ali mnjira yopita ku Sofia bambo Pavel sanathe kulumikizana ndi amayi ake chifukwa batire la foni yawo linali litafa, ndipo mwachangu adayiwala kutenga charger. Anafika ku Sofia m'mawa wa tsiku lotsatira. Atafika kunyumba kwa Sofia, ali phee, koma alinso wotopa kwambiri moti anagwa m’khonde ndipo sakufuna kulowa m’chipinda cha mlongo wake. Potsirizira pake, akuchita mantha, akulowa ndikupeza bedi la Nikolina lopanda kanthu. Kenako akuyamba kulira. Posakhalitsa, chitseko chinatsegulidwa ndipo amayi ake adalowa ndikulowa naye m'chipinda. Anadabwa chifukwa ankaganiza kuti ali yekha m’nyumbamo. “Mlongo wako atamwalira ndipo iwe unachoka,” amayi ake akumuuza motero, akunjenjemera, “ndinaitana 911. Dokotala anabwera natsimikiza za imfayo nalemba chikalata cha imfa. Komabe, sindinamusiye ndipo ndinapitiriza kumugwira dzanja ngati kuti anali moyo. Sanali kupuma ndipo ndinadziwa kuti zomwe ndikuchita zinali zopenga, koma ndinayima pambali pake. Ndinkamuuza kuti ndimamukonda komanso kuti inunso mumamukonda. Nthawi itangokwana XNUMX:XNUMX, ndinamva ngati wina akundiuza kuti ndimunyamule. Ndinamvera ndikumukweza pang'ono, ndipo iye…anatsegula maso ake! Kodi mukumvetsetsa? Anamwalira, adokotala anali atatsimikizira, koma anakhalanso ndi moyo!”
Pavel sakukhulupirira. Amafunsa komwe Nikolina ali. Amayi ake akumuuza kuti ali kukhitchini. Pavel akuloŵa m’khitchini, ndipo akuwona Nikolina atakhala kutsogolo kwa tebulo akumwa tiyi.
