Lero ndili ndi zaka 90. Koma tiyeni tibwerere ku Paris mu 1941: Ndinabadwira kumeneko zaka khumi zapitazo kuchokera ku banja lachiyuda. Asilikali a Germany anali atalanda theka la kumpoto kwa dziko la France kuchokera pamene anagonjetsedwa chaka chimodzi m’mbuyomo. Mayi anga anabadwira ku Paris, ndipo bambo anga anafika kumeneko ali ndi zaka ziwiri.
Wolemba Marc Bromberg
Amayi anga, omwe nthawi zonse amawona patali, adamuzembetsa kudutsa malire apakati pa chigawo cholandidwa ndi Germany ndi dera lotchedwa free zone yakumwera m'chilimwe cha '41. Chaka cha sukulu chinayamba mu September, ndipo ndinabwerera ku sukulu yanga, rue de Picpus mu arrondissement khumi ndi awiri a Paris.
Tsopano, amayi anga, podziŵa bwino za ngozi imene miyeso yoyamba yotsutsa Ayuda inadzetsa m’banja mwathu, mwamsanga anaganiza kuti iwo ndi inenso tichoke m’dera limene munali anthu.
M’malo mwathu, tinawoloka mobisa, osanena mowopsa, m’malo omasuka mu October. Pomalizira pake, titatha milungu ingapo ku Lyon, tinakhazikika ku Haute Loire m’chigawo chapakati cha Massif, kumene tinakhalabe osungika kufikira kutha kwa nkhondo.
Ndiloleni ndidumphe zambiri zomwe zingadzaze buku.
Kodi mungapeze kuti mayankho?
Panthaŵiyo, sitinkadziŵa kalikonse ponena za Chipululutso cha Nazi ndipo sitinkadziŵa za tsogolo la Ayuda mamiliyoni ambiri amene anathamangitsidwa kundende zopherako anthu.
Nkhondoyo itatha, nditamva za tsogolo la Ayuda amene anaphedwa ndi chipani cha Nazi, zinali zovuta kwa ine kukhala wofowoka. Koma mwana wazaka khumi ndi zisanu angachite chiyani? Sindinathe kusintha zakale. Tsogolo, mwina! Koma ndikanatani? Russia idalipira mtengo wokulirapo pakugwa kwa Hitler. Komabe, idathamangira kulimbitsa ma gulags ake ngakhale kuti malonjezano abodza a tsogolo lowala pansi pa chikomyunizimu.
Religion? Chipembedzo chotani? Iwo anali atapulumutsa anthu ena ndipo akanatha kuyamikiridwa chifukwa cha zimenezi, koma sanawaletse chilichonse. Munthu, komabe, adafunabe kukhulupirira ndipo adasungabe Yesu ndi lonjezo lake mu mtima mwake ngati chikhulupiriro chomaliza cha mphotho ya umulungu. Monga Ayuda, tinali ndi Chipangano Chakale. Tinalinso ndi nzeru zakale za Torah ndi Talmud zodzinenera m’dzina la Mulungu ndi okhulupirira anzeru ndi odziŵa kulemba ndi kulemba. Koma zimenezi sizinalepheretse Ayuda mamiliyoni ambiri, kuphatikizapo banja langa, kuphedwa.
Mamiliyoni a anthu akufa m’Nkhondo Yadziko Lachiŵiri anandipangitsa kusataya mtima ndi kufunafuna njira yopulumukira, njira yopulumukira ku chiyembekezo.
Sindinadziwe kwenikweni zomwe ndinali kufunafuna, koma ndinadziwa kuti ndikufufuza.
Malemba achipembedzo amene ndinkawadziŵa anakwaniritsa zosoŵa za anthu za zinthu zambiri osati kungolingalira zakuthupi. Komabe, ngakhale kuti zinatonthoza mtima, ndinayenera kuvomereza kuti sanaleke kumenyana ndi kuphana.
Kenako, zaka zingapo pambuyo pake, ndili ndi digiri yanga ya uinjiniya m'manja ndikugwira ntchito m'makampani, ndinakumana Scientology, lokhazikitsidwa ndi L. Ron Hubbard wotchuka. Nthaŵi zonse ndinkaganiza kuti chinachake mwa ine chimene sindikanatha kuchifotokoza chinandikopa kuti ndichichite. Ndikukumbukira msonkhano woyamba umene ndinapitako. Ndinalandira mayankho amene anakhutiritsa kufunika kwa kumvetsetsa kumene ndinali nako monga injiniya. Ndinachokapo ndi lingaliro lakuti ndiyenera kupitiriza mbali imeneyo chifukwa, mu nyanja iyi ya deta ndi zinthu zomwe moyo umaphatikizapo, ndinali nditawona kuwala kumene, kumawoneka kwa ine, kukatsegula njira yomvetsetsa. Chotero ndinachisunga, ndipo chinasintha moyo wanga mmene ndimaonera ena, kuphatikizapo kulankhulana kwanga ndi iwo, mkazi wanga ndi ana. Ndikuchitabe izi lero ndi Scientology. Ndipo ndikupeza mayankho owona ochulukirapo, mainjiniya amayankha omwe amawunikira moyo wanga.
Choncho ndapereka moyo wanga kuthandiza ena monga mmene ndadzithandizira ndekha Scientology. Ikupitiriza kukulitsa kufunikira kwanga kwa chidziwitso ndipo, koposa zonse, kumvetsetsa ndikudzimvetsetsa ndekha. Ndipo izi, ndikuwona tsiku lililonse m'moyo wanga wapagulu ndi wamseri, zimatsegula chitseko cha tsogolo lomvetsetsana, kulumikizana ndi mtendere, monga zomwe ndakhala ndikuzifuna.
