Bhuku rekupedzisira remunyori Martin Ralchevski "Usavhara maziso ako" ratova pamusika wemabhuku (© muparidzi "Edelweiss", 2022; ISBN 978-619-7186-82- 6). Bhuku ndiro kupesana kwemunamato uye mararamiro echiKristu mumazuva ano.
Martin Ralchevski akaberekerwa muSofia, Bulgaria, musi waMarch 4, 1974. Akapedza kudzidza kubva kuSofia University "St. Kliment Ohridsky” akanyanya muTheology uye Geography. Akatanga kunyora mushure mekudzoka kwake kubva kuMexico muna 2003, kwaakange apedza mwedzi mitatu achiita basa iri firimu Troy, sekuwedzera. Munzvimbo iyi inokosha uye isinganzwisisike, muguta reCabo San Lucas, California, akataura nevanhu veko uye akateerera nyaya dzavo dzakawanda dzakasiyana nezviitiko. "Ikoko, ndakanzwa kuti ndaida kunyora bhuku uye kutaura nyaya idzi dzisina kunyorwa dzandakanga ndanzwa kubva kwavari," akadaro. Uye ndiwo mabudiro akaita bhuku rake rekutanga “Endless Night”. Mumabhuku ake ese tariro, kutenda uye positivity ndiwo anotungamira madingindira. Nokukurumidza pashure, akaroora uye mumakore akatevera akava baba vevatatu. “Zvisingadzivisiki, kubvira ipapo, ndakanyora mamwe mabhuku gumi”, anodaro. Ese akaburitswa nedzimba huru dzekuBulgaria dzinotsikisa uye pakanga paine uye inoenderera mberi kuve yakazvitsaurira uye yakavimbika yechitendero kuverenga. Ralchevski akatsinhira pamusoro paikoku amene: “Ndicho chingangodaro chikonzero nei, mumakore apfuura, ndave ndichikurudzirwa navabudisi vangu, varavi navamwe vatungamiriri kunyorawo zviratidziro zvakati kuti zvemafirimu anoratidzira akavakirwa pamanovhero angu. Ndakateerera mazano aya uye kusvika nhasi, kunze kwemabhuku acho, ndakanyorawo mavhidhiyo mashanu emufirimu, ayo ndinovimba kuti achakurumidza kuitika.”
Mabhuku akaburitswa aMartin Ralchevski kusvika nhasi anoti 'Endless Night', 'Forest Spirit', 'Demigoddess', '30 Pounds', 'Fraud', 'Emigrant', 'Antikristu', 'Soul', 'The Meaning of Life', ' Nekusingaperi', uye 'Usavhara Maziso Ako'. Bhuku rake rekupedzisira rakagamuchirwa zvakanyanya nevatsoropodzi vezvinyorwa uye vaverengi. Yakagamuchira ongororo yakanaka kubva kuvanhu vakasiyana-siyana vanobatanidzwa mumabhuku, pamwe chete nemibairo yakawanda uye accolades. “Izvi zvakandikurudzira kudavira kuti bhuku iri raizofarirwawo nevaverengi veUnited States. Ndosaka ndafunga kunyorera makwikwi aya, kuti nditsikise bhuku rechiBulgarian mumutauro wechiRungu, chaizvo nerinovhero iri”, anodaro Ralchevski.
Kupfupisa kwenovhero "Usavhara Meso Ako" naMartin Ralchevski
Chikamu chikuru chebhuku racho chakavakirwa pangano isinganyanyozivikanwa yegomo reStrandja, iro nhasi rinorangarirwa bedzi navagari vakura venzvimbo yacho uye navanhu vakura vomunzvimbomo mumataundi akapoteredza gungwa dema. Ngano inoti mumavambo makumi masere ezana ramakore rapfuura, mumwe murume wechidiki anonzi Peter anobva kuguta reAhtopol akasangana nemutambo unotyisa wega.
Peter ane mukurumbira wakashata mutaundi duku nokuda kwehurema hwake hwepfungwa. Vabereki vake, Ivan naStanka, vanofanira kuenda kunoshanda muBurgas (guta guru riri pedyo) ndokusiya mwanasikana wavo ane makore gumi okukura, Ivana, ari mutarisiro yake. Petro akanga ava namakore gumi namasere okuberekwa. Imatsutso, asi kunze kwaidziya panguva iyoyo yegore, uye Peter anosarudza kuendesa Ivana kugungwa kunoshambira. Vanoenda kumahombekombe ari kure ane matombo kuti vasaonekwa nevanhu. Anovata pamhenderekedzo yegungwa, uye iye anopinda mugungwa. Zvisinei, mamiriro okunze anongoerekana aipa, masaisai makuru anooneka, uye Ivana anonyura.
Vabereki vavo pavanodzoka voziva zvakaitika, vanotsamwa zvikuru. Mukutsamwa kwake, Ivan (baba vaPetro) anomudzinga kuti aedze kumuuraya. Peter anomhanyira kuStrandja obva arasika. Kutsvakwa kwenyika kunoziviswa, kunyangwe pasina angamuwana. Anovanzwa nomufudzi womunzvimbomo mumakomo, uyo anomutarisira kwenguva pfupi. Pashure penguva yakati, Peter akasvika Bachkovo monastery. Ikoko, kwapera gore, akagamuchira humongi uye akararama upenyu hwakasimba hwemamongi, hwakavanzika pameso avanhu, mukamuri repasi reimba yamamongi, achidzokorora nguva dzose nemisodzi: “Mwari, ndapota, musandiverengera chivi ichi.” Uyu ndiwo munamato wake wakavanda; yaanopfidza nayo rufu rwehanzvadzi yake. Kuhwanda kwaakaita kunoitwa nekutya chaiko kuti kana akabatwa anoendeswa kujeri. Nokudaro, mukuchema, kuzvizvidza uye kutsanya, nerubatsiro rwemamongi akwegura, anopedza rimwe gore ari oga uye ari oga. Zvichitevera kuzivisa kusingazivikanwe, chikwata cheState Security chakasvika paHoly Monastery ndokutanga kutsvaga nzvimbo dzese dzemumongi. Petro anomanikidzwa kutiza kuti asabatwa. Anoenda kumabvazuva. Anomhanya usiku achihwanda masikati. Nokudaro, pashure perwendo rurefu uye runonetesa, anosvikazve nzvimbo iri kure zvikuru uye isina vanhu yeStrandja Mountain. Ikoko anogara mumuti usina mhango ndokutanga kurarama upenyu hwokuzvinyima, asingaregi kudzokorora munyengetero wake wokupfidza. Nenzira iyi, zvishoma nezvishoma akachinja kubva mumongiwo zvake kuva mugari wechishamiso-mushandi.
Chitsauko chitsva chinotevera, umo chiito chinotamira kuSofia, guta guru re Bharugeriya. Pamberi tine muprista wechiduku anonzi Pauro. Ane mapatya anonzi Nikolina ari kurwara zvisingaite negomarara remudumbu. Nikolina avete kumba, parutsigiro rwehupenyu. Sezvo Pavel naNikolina vari mapatya, hukama huri pakati pavo hwakasimba zvikuru. Nokudaro, Pavel haagoni kubvuma kuti acharasikirwa naye. Anonyengetera anenge masikati, akabata ruoko rwehanzvadzi yake sezvaanodzokorora kuti: “Usavhara maziso ako! Uchararama. Usavhara maziso ako! Asi zvisinei, mikana yaNikolina yekupona inoderera nezuva rega rega.
Chiito chinodzokera kuAhtopol. Ikoko, muchivanze cheimba yacho, mune vabereki vaPeter vakwegura—Ivan naStanka. Kwemakore akawanda, Ivan anozvidemba kuti akaendesa mwanakomana wake uye haagoni kurega kuzvitambudza. Rimwe jaya rinongoerekana rasvika kwavari, iro rinovaudza kuti vavhimi vaona mwanakomana wavo Peter mukatikati megomo reStrandja. Vabereki vake vanoshamiswa. Vakabva vangobuda nemota vakananga kugomo. Stanka anobva aita kusvotwa nekutarisira. Motokari inomira uye Ivan anoenderera mberi ega. Ivan anosvika panzvimbo iyo Petro akaonekwa uye anotanga kudanidzira: "Mwanakomana ... Peter. Zviratidze… Ndapota. " Uye Petro anooneka. Musangano pakati pababa nemwanakomana unorwadza. Ivan murume akwegura, ane makore 83, uye Peter achena uye aneta nemararamiro ake akaoma. Ane makore makumi matanhatu. Petro anoudza baba vake kuti, “Hamuna kukanda mapfumo pasi, uye mazondiwana. Asi ini ... handikwanise kudzosa Ivana kubva kuvakafa." Petro anopererwa. Anorara pasi, anotambanudzira maoko ake uye anozevezera kuna baba vake kuti: “Ndiregerereiwo! Pazvose. Ndiri pano! Ndiuraye. Ivan wekare akapfugama pamberi pake uye akapfidza. “Imhosva yangu. Unofanira kundiregerera, mwanakomana,” anochema kudaro. Petro anosimuka. Chiitiko chacho chakanaka. Vanombundirana ndokuonekana.
Chiito chinodzokera kuna Sofia zvakare. Kunzwa kunorwadza kwekufa kuri kuuya kwave kutotenderera kune anorwara Nikolina. Baba Pavel vanochema vachinamata vasingapere. Mamwe manheru, shamwari yepedyo yaPavel inomuudza zvakavanzika zvemumongi asinganzwisisike anogara kumwe kuStrandja Mountain. Pavel anofunga kuti iyi ingano, asi zvakadaro anosarudza kuedza kuwana hermit. Munguva iyi, hanzvadzi yake Nikolina inozorora. Ipapo, mukuora mwoyo kwake, Pavel anoronzesa muviri wake usina upenyu kuna amai vavo ndokuenda kuStrandja Mountain. Panguva ino amai vacho vanodana noruzvidzo shure kwake kuti aita uyu munyengetero nokuda kwehanzvadzi yake kwenguva refu kwazvo, “Ndapota usatsinzina meso ako,” asi zvino iye afa, uye zvino achatii? Acharamba achinyengetera sei? Ipapo Pauro anomira, anochema, uye anopindura kuti hapana simba rokumudzivisa uye kuti acharamba achidavira kuti kune tariro yokuti mukadzi ararame. Amai vanofunga kuti mwanakomana wavo arasika njere ndokutanga kumuchema. Pauro anobva afunga zvaakaudzwa naamai vake ndokutanga kunyengetera seizvi: “Aiwa, handizoregi. Uchararama. Ndapota, svinura meso ako!” Kubva panguva iyoyo Pauro akatanga kudzokorora asingaregi panzvimbo pomunyengetero wokuti “Usavhara maziso ako” zvakapesana nawo, zvokuti: “Vhura maziso ako! Ndapota, svinura meso ako!”
Nemunamato mutsva uyu pamuromo werurimi rwake, uye mushure mematambudziko makuru, anokwanisa kuwana mugari wegomo mugomo. Kusangana kwevaviri ava kunokatyamadza. Pauro anotanga aona Petro oenda kwaari chinyararire. Murume mutsvene akapfugama nemaoko ake akasimudzwa kudenga uye nemisodzi anodzokorora: “Mwari, ndapota mundiverengere chivi ichi…” Pauro anobva angonzwisisa kuti uyu hausi munyengetero wakakodzera. Nokuti hapana munhuwo zvake anganyengetera kuti averengerwe chivi chake, asi kuti akanganwirwe. Zvinorehwa kumuverengi kuti kutsiviwa uku kwakaunzwa nekuda kwekushaya njere kwemurevereri uye kusaziva. Nokudaro, munyengetero wake wapakuvamba wokuti: “Mwari, ndapota musandiverengera chivi ichi” zvishoma nezvishoma, nokufamba kwamakore, wakashandurwa kuva “Mwari, ndiverengerei chivi ichi.” Pavel haazive kuti hermit haagone kuverenga uye kuti akapotsa aenda musango munzvimbo iyi isina vanhu uye isina vanhu. Asi vaviri ava pavanosangana maziso, Pauro anoona kuti akatarisana nemutsvene. Kusaziva, kusadzidza, kunonoka kwepfungwa, uye zvakadaro mutsvene! Munamato usiri iwo unoratidza Pauro kuti Mwari havatarise chiso chedu, asi pamwoyo yedu. Pavel anochema pamberi paPeter ndokumuudza kuti hanzvadzi yake Nikolina yakanga yafa kare zuva iroro uye kuti akanga abva kuSofia kuzokumbira minyengetero yake. Ipapo, kukuvhunduka kwaPauro, Petro anotaura kuti hapana chikonzero chokunyengetera nemhaka yokuti Mwari haasati achizonzwa mikumbiro yake. Zvisinei, Pauro haaregi, asi anoramba achimukumbira, pasinei nezvose, kuti anyengeterere hanzvadzi yake yakafa kuti ararame. Asi Petro anoramba akatsunga. Pakupedzisira, mukushungurudzika kwake nokushaiwa betsero, Pauro anopika kwaari seizvi: “Kudai waiva nehanzvadzi yaida sezvandinoda hanzvadzi yangu uye yaigona kumudzosa kubva kune imwe nyika, waizondinzwisisa ndokundibetsera! Mazwi aya anozunguza Peter. Anoyeuka rufu rwehanzvadzi yake duku Ivana uye anonzwisisa kuti Mwari, kuburikidza nekusangana uku, mushure memakore akawanda ekupfidza, pakupedzisira ari kuedza kumusunungura. Ipapo Petro anowira pamabvi ake ndokuchema kuna Mwari kuti aite chishamiso uye adzose mweya wehanzvadzi yaPauro kunyika yavapenyu. Izvi zvinoitika nenguva dza four-thirty masikati. Pavel anomutenda uye anobva paStrandja Mountain.
Vari munzira kuenda kuSofia baba Pavel havana kukwanisa kubata amai vavo nekuti bhatiri renharembozha yavo rakanga rapera, nekuchimbidza kwavo vakakanganwa kutakura charger. Anosvika muSofia mumaawa emangwanani ezuva rinotevera. Paanouya kumba kwaSofia, anongoti zii, asi anetawo zvokuti anowira mukoridho uye haadi kupinda muimba yasisi vake. Pakupedzisira, anotya, anopinda ndokuwana mubhedha waNikolina usina chinhu. Anobva atanga kuchema. Pasina nguva, gonhi rinovhurwa amai vake ndokupinda mumba ndokupinda naye mumba. Anoshamisika nekuti aifunga kuti ari ega mumba. “Pashure pokunge hanzvadzi yako yafa uye iwe waenda,” amai vake vanomuudza kudaro, vachidedera, “ndakafonera 911. Mumwe chiremba akauya ndokusarudza rufu ndokunyora gwaro rokufa. Zvisinei handina kuvasiya ndakaramba ndakavabata ruoko sekunge vainge vachiri vapenyu. Haana kufema uye ndakaziva kuti zvandaiita ndezvekupenga, asi ndakamira padivi pake. Ndanga ndichimuudza kuti ndinomuda uye kuti iwe unomudawo. Dzakati dzave nguva dzafour: XNUMX ndipo pandakanzwa kunge munhu aiti ndimutore. Ndakateerera ndikamusimudza zvishoma, iye…aka…akavhura maziso ake! unonzwisisa here? Akanga afa, chiremba akanga azvisimbisa, asi akamuka!”
Pavel haagoni kuzvitenda. Anobvunza kuti Nikolina ari kupi. Amai vake vanomuudza kuti ari mukicheni. Pavel anopinda mukicheni, uye anoona Nikolina akagara pamberi petafura achinwa tii.
