Incwadi yamva nje yombhali uMartin Ralchevski "Musa ukuvala amehlo akho" sele ikwimarike yeencwadi (© umshicileli "Edelweiss", 2022; ISBN 978-619-7186-82- 6). Le ncwadi ichasene nomthandazo kunye nendlela yobuKristu yokuphila kule mihla.
UMartin Ralchevski wazalelwa eSofia, eBulgaria, ngoMatshi 4, 1974. Waphumelela kwiYunivesithi yaseSofia "eSt. Kliment Ohridsky” ebalaselisa kwiTheology neJografi. Waqala ukubhala emva kokubuya kwakhe eMexico ngo-2003, apho wayechithe iinyanga ezintathu elingisa kweli nqaku ifilimu Troy, okongeziweyo. Kule ndawo ikhethekileyo nengaqondakaliyo, kwidolophu yaseCabo San Lucas, eCalifornia, wathetha nabantu basekuhlaleni waza waphulaphula amabali namava abo amaninzi. “Apho, ndiye ndaziva ndifuna ukubhala incwadi ndize ndibalise la mabali angabhalwanga antsonkothileyo ebendiweva kubo”, ebeya kutsho. Nantso ke indlela incwadi yakhe yokuqala ethi “Endless Night” yazaliseka ngayo. Kuzo zonke iincwadi zakhe ithemba, ukholo kunye ne-positivity yimixholo ephambili. Kungekudala emva koko, watshata kwaye kwiminyaka elandelayo waba nguyise wabantwana abathathu. “Ngokuqinisekileyo, ukusukela ngoko, ndibhale ezinye iincwadi ezilishumi”, utshilo. Zonke zapapashwa zezona zindlu ziphambili zopapasho zaseBulgaria kwaye bekukho kwaye kusaqhubeka nokuba ngumfundi ozinikeleyo nothembekileyo wehlelo. URalchevski wagqabaza ngale nto ngokwakhe: “Eso kusenokwenzeka ukuba sisizathu sokuba, ukutyhubela iminyaka, ndiye ndakhuthazwa ngabapapashi bam, abafundi nabalathisi abathile ukuba nabo ndibhale imiboniso bhanyabhanya eliqela esekelwe kwiinoveli zam. Ndawaphulaphula la macebiso yaye ukuza kuthi ga ngoku, ukongezelela kwiincwadi, ndibhale nemiboniso emihlanu yeefilimu ezibalaseleyo, endinethemba lokuba iza kuzaliseka kungekudala.”
Iincwadi ezipapashiweyo zikaMartin Ralchevski ukuza kuthi ga ngoku ziyi "Endless Night", "Forest Spirit", 'Demigoddess', '30 Pounds', 'Fraud', 'Emigrant', 'Antichrist', 'Soul', 'Intsingiselo yoBomi', ' Unaphakade', kwaye 'Musa ukuVala Amehlo Akho'. Incwadi yakhe yokugqibela yamkelwa kakuhle kakhulu ngabahlalutyi boncwadi kunye nabafundi. Ifumene uphononongo oluhle kakhulu kubantu abohlukeneyo ababandakanyeka kuncwadi, kunye namabhaso amaninzi kunye namawonga. “Oku kwandikhuthaza ukuba ndikholelwe ukuba le ncwadi iza kubangel’ umdla nakubafundi baseUnited States. Yiyo loo nto ndigqibe kwelokuba ndifake isicelo solu khuphiswano, ukuba ndipapashe incwadi yesiBulgaria ngolwimi lwesiNgesi, kanye ngale noveli”, utshilo uRalchevski.
Isishwankathelo senoveli ethi “Musa ukuvala Amehlo Akho” nguMartin Ralchevski
Inxalenye enkulu yale noveli isekelwe kwintsomi engaziwayo yentaba yaseStrandja, namhlanje ekhunjulwa kuphela ngabahlali abasele bekhulile baloo ndawo kunye nabemi basekuhlaleni abadala kwiidolophu ezingqonge ulwandle olumnyama. Intsomi ithi ekuqaleni kweminyaka engamashumi asibhozo kwinkulungwane edluleyo, umfana ogama linguPeter osuka kwisixeko sase-Ahtopol wafumana idrama yobuqu eyoyikekayo.
UPeter udume kakubi kwidolophu encinci ngenxa yokukhubazeka kwakhe kwengqondo. Abazali bakhe, uIvan noStanka, kufuneka baye kusebenza eBurgas (isixeko esikhulu esikufuphi) baze bashiye intombi yabo eneminyaka elishumi ubudala, uIvana, kwinyameko yakhe. UPetros wayeneminyaka elishumi elinesibhozo ngoko. Kusekwindla, kodwa imozulu yayishushu ngelo xesha lonyaka, yaye uPetros ugqiba kwelokuba athabathe u-Ivana amse elwandle ukuze aqubhe. Baya kunxweme olukude olunamatye ukuze baphephe ukubonwa nguye nabani na. Ulala elwandle, aze yena angene elwandle. Nangona kunjalo, imozulu iyancipha ngokukhawuleza, amaza amakhulu avela, kwaye u-Ivana uyarhaxwa.
Xa abazali babo bebuya baze bafunde ngoko kwenzekileyo, baba nomsindo. Ngomsindo wakhe, u-Ivan (uyise kaPetros) uyamgxotha ukuze azame ukumbulala. UPeter ubalekela eStrandja kwaye uyalahleka. Ukhangelo lwesizwe luyabhengezwa, nangona kungekho mntu unokumfumana. Ufihlwa ngumalusi wasekuhlaleni ezintabeni, onyamekela ngokufutshane. Emva kwexesha elithile, uPetros waphelela kwiimonki Bachkovo. Apho, emva konyaka, wamkela ubumonki waza waphila ubomi obungqongqo bobumonki, obufihliweyo emehlweni abantu, kumgangatho ongaphantsi wekhaya loonongendi, esoloko ephindaphinda iinyembezi esithi: “Thixo, nceda, ungasibaleli kum esi sono.” Lo ngumthandazo wakhe osekhusini; azisola ngayo ngokufa kodade wabo. Ukuzifihla kwakhe kubangelwa luloyiko lokwenene lokuba xa ebanjwe, uya kuvalelwa entolongweni. Ngaloo ndlela, ekulileni, ekuzihlazeni nasekuzileni ukutya, ngoncedo lweemonki ezikhulileyo, uchitha omnye unyaka eyedwa kwaye eyedwa. Kulandela ingcebiso engaziwa mntu, iqela lezoKhuseleko lukaRhulumente lafika kwiHoly Monastery laza laqalisa ugqogqo kuzo zonke iindawo ezikuloo monastery. UPetros unyanzeleka ukuba asabe ukuze angabhaqwa. Uya ngasempuma. Ubaleka ebusuku aze azifihle emini. Ngaloo ndlela, emva kohambo olude noludinisayo, kwakhona ufika kweyona nxalenye ikude neyintlango yeNtaba yeStrandja. Apho uzinza emthini yaye uqalisa ukuphila ubomi bokuzibandeza ulonwabo, engayeki ukuwuphindaphinda umthandazo wakhe wokuzohlwaya. Ngale ndlela, ngokuthe ngcembe waguquka ukusuka kwimonki eqhelekileyo waba ngumsebenzi wommangaliso.
Isahluko esitsha silandela, apho isenzo sifudukela eSofia, ikomkhulu le Bhulgariya. Ngaphambili sinomfundisi oselula ogama linguPaul. Unewele lika-Nikolina eligulela ukufa ngenxa yomhlaza wesisu. U-Nikolina ulele ekhaya, kwinkxaso yobomi. Ekubeni uPavel noNikolina bangamawele, ubudlelwane phakathi kwabo bunamandla kakhulu. Ngoko ke, uPavel akanakuvuma ukuba uya kuphulukana naye. Uthandaza phantse ubusuku nemini, ebambe isandla sikadade wabo njengoko ephinda esithi: “Sukuwavala amehlo akho! Uya kuphila. Sukuvala amehlo akho!” Kodwa nangona kunjalo, amathuba kaNikolina okusinda ayancipha yonke imihla.
Isenzo sibuyela e-Ahtopol. Apho, eyadini yendlu, kukho abazali bakaPeter abasele bekhulile—uIvan noStanka. Kwiminyaka emininzi, u-Ivan uzisola ngokuthumela unyana wakhe kwaye akakwazi ukuyeka ukuzikhathaza. Umfana oselula ufika kubo ngequbuliso, obaxelela ukuba abazingeli baye babona unyana wabo uPetros nzulu kwintaba yaseStrandja. Abazali bakhe bamangalisiwe. Ngoko nangoko bahamba ngemoto ukuya entabeni. UStanka uba nesicaphucaphu kuba ebelindele. Imoto ima kwaye u-Ivan uyaqhubeka yedwa. U-Ivan ufika kwindawo awabonwa kuyo uPetros aze aqalise ukukhwaza esithi: “Nyana . . . Zibonise… Nceda.” Kwaye uyavela uPetros. Intlanganiso phakathi kotata nonyana ibuhlungu. U-Ivan yindoda esele ikhulile, uneminyaka engama-83 ubudala, kwaye uPeter ungwevu kwaye udiniwe kubomi bakhe obunzima. Uneminyaka engama-60 ubudala. UPetros uthi kuyise, “Awuzange uncame, yaye ekugqibeleni undifumene. Kodwa andikwazi ukubuyisela u-Ivana kwabafileyo.” UPetros ukhathazekile. Ungqengqe phantsi, ewela iingalo zakhe aze ambombozele kuyise esithi: “Ndixolele! Kuyo yonke into. Ndilapha! Ndibulale." UIvan omdala waguqa phambi kwakhe waza waguquka. “Lityala lam. Kufuneka undixolele, nyana,” watsho ngesijwili. UPetros uyaphakama. Umboniso uyamangalisa. Bawolana bavalelisa.
Isenzo sibuyela kuSofia kwakhona. Imvakalelo ebuhlungu yokufa okuzayo sele ijikeleza uNikolina ogulayo. Ubawo uPavel uyakhala kwaye ethandaza engayeki. Ngobunye ubusuku, umhlobo osenyongweni kaPavel uzityand’ igila kuye malunga nemonki engaqondakaliyo ehlala kwiNtaba yeStrandja. UPavel ucinga ukuba le yintsomi, kodwa nangona kunjalo ugqiba kwelokuba azame ukufumana le hermit. Ngeli xesha, udadewabo Nikolina uphumle. Emva koko, ekuphelelwe lithemba, uPavel unikela umzimba wakhe ongaphiliyo kunina aze ahambe esinge kwiNtaba yaseStrandja. Ngalo mzuzu unina ukhwaza emva kwakhe esithi wenze lo mthandazo kadade wabo ithuba elide kangaka, “Nceda ungawavali amehlo,” ukanti ufile ngoku, uya kuthini ke ngoku? Uza kuqhubeka njani ethandaza? Wandula ke uPawulos ame, akhale, aze aphendule ngelithi akukho mandla okumnqanda nokuba uya kuqhubeka ekholelwa ukuba likho ithemba lokuba aphile. Umama ucinga ukuba unyana wakhe ushiywe ziingqondo aze aqalise ukumzilela. Wandula ke uPaul acinge ngoko wayekuxelelwe ngumama wakhe aze aqalise ukuthandaza ngolu hlobo: “Hayi, andiyi kuyeka. Uya kuphila. Nceda uvule amehlo akho!” Ukususela ngelo xesha uPawulos waqalisa ukuphindaphinda ngokuqhubekayo endaweni yomthandazo othi “Musa ukuwavala amehlo akho” ngokuchasene nawo, oko kukuthi: “Vula amehlo akho! Nceda uvule amehlo akho!”
Ngalo mthandazo mtsha kwincam yolwimi lwakhe, kwaye emva kobunzima obukhulu, uyakwazi ukufumana i-hermit entabeni. Indibano phakathi kwaba babini iyothusa. UPawulos ubona uPetros kuqala aze athethe kuye ethe cwaka. Indoda engcwele iguqe izandla zayo ziphakanyiselwe ezulwini kwaye ikhala iinyembezi iphinda-phinda: “Thixo, ndicela undibalele esi sono…” UPawulos uyaqonda kwangoko ukuba lo ayingomthandazo ufanelekileyo. Kuba akakho umntu oqhelekileyo onokuthandazela ukuba isono sakhe sibalelwe kuye, kodwa ngokuchaseneyo, ukuba sixolelwe. Kumfundi kuboniswa ukuba olu tshintsho lwenziwe ngenxa yokunqongophala kwengqondo kunye nokungazi. Ngaloo ndlela, umthandazo wakhe wantlandlolo othi: “Thixo, musa ukusibalela kum esi sono” ngokuthe ngcembe, ukutyhubela iminyaka, waguquka waba “nguThixo, sibalele kum esi sono.” UPavel akazi ukuba lo mfundisi-ntsapho akafundanga kwaye uphantse wabhadula kule ndawo iyinkangala nengenabubele. Kodwa xa ezi zibini zidibana ngamehlo, uPawulos uyaqonda ukuba ujongene nengcwele. Ukungazi, ongafundanga, ocothayo engqondweni, ukanti ungcwele! Umthandazo ongalunganga ubonisa uPawulos ukuba uThixo akajongi ubuso bethu, kodwa iintliziyo zethu. UPavel uyakhala phambi kukaPetros aze amxelele ukuba udadewabo uNikolina wayefile ngaphambilana ngaloo mini kwaye wayevela eSofia ukuze acele imithandazo yakhe. Othuswa nguPawulos, uPetros uthi akuyomfuneko ukuthandaza kuba uThixo akayi kuziphulaphula izibongozo zakhe. Noko ke, uPawulos akanikezeli, kodwa uyaqhubeka embongoza, phezu kwayo nje yonke into, ukuba athandazele udade wakhe ofileyo ukuba aphile. Kodwa uPetros akagungqi. Ekugqibeleni, ekubandezelekeni kwakhe nasekuphelelweni lithemba, uPawulos ufunga ngolu hlobo kuye: “Ukuba ubunodade wethu othanda njengoko nam ndimthanda udade wethu nonokumbuyisa kwelinye ihlabathi, ubuya kundiqonda yaye undincede!” La mazwi amshukumisa uPetros. Ukhumbula ukufa kukadadewabo omncinci u-Ivana kwaye uyaqonda ukuba uThixo, ngale ndibano, emva kweminyaka emininzi yokuguquka, ekugqibeleni uzama ukumkhulula. Emva koko uPetros uguqa ngamadolo aze akhale kuThixo ukuba enze ummangaliso aze abuyisele umphefumlo wodade kaPawulos kwihlabathi labaphilayo. Oku kwenzeka malunga nentsimbi yesine emva kwemini. UPavel uyambulela aze ashiye iNtaba yaseStrandja.
Endleleni eya eSofia, utata uPavel akakwazanga ukuqhagamshelana nomama wakhe kuba i-battery yefowuni yakhe yayiphelile, kwaye ngokungxama kwakhe, walibala ukuhamba ne-charger. Ufika eSofia ngentsimbi yokuqala yosuku olulandelayo. Xa efika ekhaya eSofia, uthe cwaka, kodwa kwakhona udiniwe kangangokuba wawa epasejini yaye akafuni nokungena kwigumbi likadade wabo. Ekugqibeleni, uyoyika, engena aze afumane ibhedi kaNikolina ingenanto. Emva koko uqalisa ukulila. Kungekudala emva koko, ucango luyavuleka aze umama wakhe angene aze amthelele egumbini. Wothukile kuba wayecinga ukuba wayeyedwa kwelo fulethi. Engcangcazela, unina umxelela oku: “Emva kokuba udadewenu efile waza wemka, ndatsalela umnxeba kwa-911. Ugqirha weza waza wagqiba kwelokuba uza kufa waza wabhala isiqinisekiso sokufa. Noko ke andamyeka ndaqhubeka ndimbambe ngesandla ngathi usaphila. Ebengaphefumli bendiyazi ukuba iyaphambana lento ndiyenzayo kodwa ndema ecaleni kwakhe. Bendimxelela ukuba ndiyamthanda kwaye nawe uyamthanda. Kwakusemva kancinci emva kwentsimbi yesine xa kwavakala ukuba kukho umntu othi mandimthathe. Ndathobela ndamphakamisa kancinci, wa…wavula amehlo akhe! uyaqonda? Wayeswelekile, ugqirha wayekuqinisekisile oko, kodwa wabuyela ebomini kwakhona!”
UPavel akakholelwa. Uyabuza ukuba uphi uNikolina. Umama wakhe umxelela ukuba usekhitshini. UPavel ungena ekhitshini, kwaye ubona uNikolina ehleli phambi kwetafile esela iti.
