Incwadi yakamuva yomlobi uMartin Ralchevski "Ungavali amehlo akho" isivele isemakethe yezincwadi (© umshicileli "Edelweiss", 2022; ISBN 978-619-7186-82- 6). Le ncwadi iphikisana nomkhuleko kanye nendlela yobuKristu yokuphila esikhathini samanje.
UMartin Ralchevski wazalelwa eSofia, eBulgaria, ngoMashi 4, 1974. Uthole iziqu eSofia University “St. Kliment Ohridsky” owenza izifundo zeTheology neGeography. Uqale ukubhala ngemuva kokubuya kwakhe eMexico ngo-2003, lapho abesechithe khona izinyanga ezintathu elingisa kulo mdlalo ifilimu Troy, njengokwengeziwe. Kule ndawo ekhethekile nengaqondakali, edolobheni laseCabo San Lucas, eCalifornia, wakhuluma nabantu bendawo futhi walalela izindaba zabo eziningi eziyingqayizivele kanye nokuhlangenwe nakho kwabo. “Lapho, ngaba nomuzwa wokuthi ngifuna ukubhala incwadi futhi ngixoxele lezi zindaba ezingarekhodiwe ezingaqondakali engangizizwe kubo”, wayesho. Futhi yafezeka kanjalo incwadi yakhe yokuqala ethi “Endless Night”. Kuzo zonke izincwadi zakhe, ithemba, ukholo kanye ne-positivity yizindikimba ezihamba phambili. Ngokushesha ngemva kwalokho, washada futhi eminyakeni eyalandela waba uyise wabantwana abathathu. “Nakanjani, kusukela lapho, sengibhale ezinye izincwadi eziyishumi,” usho kanje. Zonke zanyatheliswa yizinkampani ezinkulu zokushicilela zaseBulgaria futhi bekukhona futhi kusaqhubeka nokuba abafundi behlelo elizinikele nelithembekile. U-Ralchevski waphawula ngalokhu ngokwakhe: “Leso cishe yisizathu esenza, phakathi neminyaka edlule, ngigqugquzelwe abashicileli bami, abafundi nabanye abaqondisi ukuba ngiphinde ngibhale imidlalo eminingana yamafilimu abalulekile asekelwe kumanoveli ami. Ngizilalele lezi ziphakamiso futhi kuze kube manje, ngaphezu kwezincwadi, sengibhale nemidlalo emihlanu yamafilimu abalulekile, engithemba ukuthi izofezeka maduze.”
Izincwadi zikaMartin Ralchevski ezishicilelwe kuze kube manje ziyi-'Endless Night', 'Forest Spirit', 'Demigoddess', '30 Pounds', 'Fraud', 'Emigrant', 'Antichrist', 'Soul', 'The Meaning of Life', ' Iphakade', kanye 'Ungawavali Amehlo Akho'. Incwadi yakhe yokugcina yamukelwe kahle kakhulu ngabahlaziyi bemibhalo nabafundi. Ithole ukubuyekezwa okuhle kakhulu kubantu abahlukahlukene ababandakanyeka ezincwadini, kanye nemiklomelo eminingi nezindondo. “Lokhu kwangikhuthaza ukuba ngikholelwe ukuthi le ncwadi izobathakazelisa nabafundi baseMelika. Yingakho nginqume ukufaka isicelo salo mncintiswano, ukuze ngishicilele incwadi yesiBulgaria ngolimi lwesiNgisi, kanye nale noveli”, kusho uRalchevski.
Isifinyezo senoveli ethi “Ungavali Amehlo Akho” kaMartin Ralchevski
Ingxenye enkulu yale noveli isekelwe enganekwaneni eyaziwa kancane yentaba yaseStrandja, namuhla ekhunjulwa kuphela abantu abadala bakule ndawo kanye nabantu abadala bendawo emadolobheni azungeze ulwandle olumnyama. Inganekwane ithi ekuqaleni kweminyaka engamashumi ayisishiyagalombili yekhulu leminyaka elidlule, insizwa okuthiwa uPeter yasedolobheni lase-Ahtopol yabhekana nedrama yomuntu siqu embi.
UPeter udume kabi edolobheni elincane ngokukhubazeka kwakhe kwengqondo. Abazali bakhe, u-Ivan noStanka, kufanele bayosebenza eBurgas (idolobha elikhulu eliseduze) futhi bashiye indodakazi yabo eneminyaka eyishumi ubudala, u-Ivana, esandleni sakhe. Ngaleso sikhathi uPetru wayeneminyaka eyishumi nesishiyagalombili. Kusekwindla, kodwa isimo sezulu sasifudumele ngaleso sikhathi sonyaka, futhi uPetru unquma ukuthatha u-Ivana aye olwandle ukuze ayobhukuda. Baya olwandle olukude olunamatshe ukuze bagweme ukubonwa yinoma ubani. Ulala ogwini lolwandle, bese yena engena olwandle. Nokho, isimo sezulu siba sibi ngokuzumayo, kuvela amagagasi amakhulu, bese u-Ivana eminza.
Lapho abazali babo bebuya futhi bezwa ngalokho okwenzekile, bayathukuthela. Ngentukuthelo yakhe, u-Ivan (uyise kaPetru) uyamxosha ukuze azame ukumbulala. UPeter ugijimela eStrandja futhi uyalahleka. Kumenyezelwa umkhankaso wokuthungatha izwe, nakuba kungekho muntu ongamthola. Ufihlwe umalusi wendawo ezintabeni, omnakekela kafushane. Ngemva kwesikhathi esithile, uPetru wagcina endlini yezindela Bachkovo. Lapho, ngemva konyaka, wamukela ubundela futhi waphila ukuphila okuqinile kwezindela, efihlekile emehlweni abantu, ekamelweni elingaphansi lesigodlo sezindela, ephindaphinda njalo ngezinyembezi: “Nkulunkulu, ngicela ungasibaleli lesi sono kimi. Lona umthandazo wakhe oyimfihlo; azisola ngayo ngokufa kukadadewabo. Ukucasha kwakhe kudalwa wuvalo lwangempela lokuthi uma ebanjwa uzogqunywa ejele. Ngakho, ngokukhala, ukuzihlambalaza nokuzila ukudla, ngosizo lwezindela ezindala, uchitha omunye unyaka eyedwa futhi eyedwa. Ngemva kokulunywa indlebe ngokungaziwa, ithimba Lezokuphepha Zikahulumeni lafika eSigodlweni Sezindela Ezingcwele futhi laqala ukusesha zonke izakhiwo ezikule ndawo. UPeter uphoqeleka ukuba abaleke ukuze angabanjwa. Uya empumalanga. Ugijima ebusuku acashe emini. Ngakho, ngemva kohambo olude nolukhathazayo, uphinde afinyelele endaweni eqhelile neyihlane yeNtaba iStrandja. Lapho, uzinza esihlahleni esingenalutho futhi uqala ukuphila ukuphila kokuzincisha injabulo, engayeki ukuphindaphinda umthandazo wakhe wokuzisola. Ngale ndlela, kancane kancane washintsha esuka ekubeni yindela evamile waba umenzi wezimangaliso.
Kulandela isahluko esisha, lapho isenzo sithuthela eSofia, inhloko-dolobha ye Bulgaria. Ngaphambili sinompristi osemusha ogama lakhe linguPaul. Unewele lika-Nikolina eligulela ukufa liphethwe umdlavuza wesisu. U-Nikolina ulele ekhaya, ngokusekelwa impilo. Njengoba uPavel noNikolina bengamawele, ubuhlobo phakathi kwabo buqine kakhulu. Ngakho-ke, uPavel akakwazi ukwamukela ukuthi uzolahlekelwa nguye. Uthandaza cishe ubusuku nemini, ebambe isandla sikadadewabo njengoba ephindaphinda: “Ungawavali amehlo! Uzophila. Ungawavali amehlo!” Kodwa noma kunjalo, amathuba kaNikolina okusinda ayancipha njalo ngosuku oludlulayo.
Isenzo sibuyela emuva ku-Ahtopol. Lapho, egcekeni lomuzi, kunabazali bakaPeter asebekhulile—u-Ivan noStanka. Iminyaka eminingi, u-Ivan uyazisola ngokuthi wathumela indodana yakhe futhi akakwazi ukuyeka ukuzihlupha. Insizwa ethile ifika kubo ngokuzumayo, ebatshela ukuthi abazingeli babone indodana yabo uPeter ekujuleni kwentaba yaseStrandja. Abazali bakhe bamangala. Ngokushesha basuke ngemoto bebheke entabeni. UStanka uba nesicanucanu ngenxa yokulindela. Ime imoto u-Ivan aqhubeke yedwa. U-Ivan ufika endaweni lapho uPetru abonwa khona futhi uqala ukumemeza: “Ndodana…Peter. Zibonise… Ngiyacela.” Futhi uPetru uyavela. Umhlangano phakathi kukababa nendodana uyadabukisa. U-Ivan uyikhehla elikhathele, uneminyaka engu-83 ubudala, futhi uPeter usempunga futhi ukhathele ngenxa yempilo yakhe enzima. Uneminyaka engu-60 ubudala. UPetru utshela uyise, “Awuzange uphele amandla, futhi ekugcineni ungitholile. Kodwa angikwazi ukubuyisela u-Ivana kwabafileyo.” UPetru ukhungathekile. Ulala phansi, eqa izingalo zakhe futhi akhulume noyise: “Ngithethelele! Kukho konke. Ngilapha! Ngibulale." U-Ivan omdala waguqa phambi kwakhe futhi waphenduka. “Iphutha lami. Kumele ungixolele ndodana,” esho ekhala. UPetru uyasukuma. Isimo sincomeka kakhulu. Bagonana bavalelisane.
Isenzo sibuyela ku-Sofia futhi. Umuzwa obuhlungu wokufa okusondelayo kakade uzungeza uNikolina ogulayo. Ubaba uPavel uyakhala futhi ethandaza engaphezi. Ngobunye ubusuku, umngane oseduze kaPavel uthulula isifuba kuye mayelana nendela engaqondakali ehlala endaweni ethile eStrandja Mountain. U-Pavel ucabanga ukuthi lokhu kuyinganekwane, kodwa noma kunjalo unquma ukuzama ukuthola lo mlisa. Phakathi nalesi sikhathi, udadewabo u-Nikolina uphumula. Khona-ke, ngenxa yokuphelelwa ithemba kwakhe, uPavel unikela isidumbu sakhe esingaphili kunina futhi alibangise eStrandja Mountain. Ngawo lo mzuzu unina umemeza ngokuthuka ethi usethandaze udadewabo isikhathi eside kangaka, “Ngicela ungawavali amehlo,” kodwa manje usefile, manje uzothini? Uzoqhubeka kanjani ethandaza? Khona-ke uPawulu uyama, uyakhala, futhi uphendula ngokuthi awekho amandla okumvimba nokuthi uzoqhubeka ekholelwa ukuthi likhona ithemba lokuphila kwakhe. Umama ucabanga ukuthi indodana yakhe isilahlekelwe ingqondo futhi uqala ukuyikhalela. Khona-ke uPaul ucabanga ngalokho unina amtshele kona abese eqala ukuthandaza kanje: “Cha, ngeke ngiphele amandla. Uzophila. Ngicela uvule amehlo akho!” Kusukela ngaleso sikhathi uPawulu waqala ukuphindaphinda ngokungaphezi esikhundleni somthandazo othi “Ungawavali amehlo akho” ngokuphambene nawo, okungukuthi: “Vula amehlo akho! Ngicela uvule amehlo akho!”
Ngalo mthandazo omusha ekugcineni kolimi lwakhe, futhi ngemva kobunzima obukhulu, uyakwazi ukuthola umakhelwane entabeni. Umhlangano walaba ababili uyashaqisa. UPawulu uqaphela uPetru kuqala futhi uya kuye buthule. Umuntu ongcwele uguqe izandla zakhe ziphakanyiselwe ezulwini futhi ngezinyembezi uyaphinda: “Nkulunkulu, ngicela ubale kimi lesi sono…” UPawule uyaqonda ngokushesha ukuthi lona akuwona umthandazo ofanele. Ngoba akekho umuntu ovamile ongathandazela ukuba abalelwe isono sakhe, kodwa ngokuphambene, ukuba athethelelwe. Kumfundi kusuke kucatshangelwa ukuthi lokhu kushintshwa kwenziwa ngenxa yokuntula ingqondo nokungazi. Ngakho, umthandazo wakhe wokuqala: “Nkulunkulu, ngicela ungasibaleli kimi lesi sono” kancane kancane, phakathi neminyaka, waphenduka waba “Nkulunkulu, ngibalele lesi sono.” U-Pavel akazi ukuthi u-hermit akafundile nokuthi ucishe wagangatheka kule ndawo eyihlane nengenamoya. Kodwa lapho bobabili bebonana ngamehlo, uPawulu uyaqaphela ukuthi ubhekene nosanta. Ukungazi, okungafundile, okunensayo ngokomqondo, kanti nokho ungcwele! Umthandazo ongalungile ubonisa uPawulu ukuthi uNkulunkulu akabheki ubuso bethu, kodwa enhliziyweni yethu. UPavel uyakhala phambi kukaPeter futhi umtshela ukuthi udadewabo uNikolina wayeshone ekuqaleni kwalolo suku nokuthi wayevela kude eSofia ezocela imithandazo yakhe. Khona-ke, ngokushaqeka kukaPawulu, uPetru uthi akusizi ukuthandaza ngoba uNkulunkulu ngeke ezwe izicelo zakhe. Nokho, uPawulu akadikibali, kodwa uyaqhubeka emncenga, naphezu kwakho konke, ukuba athandazele udadewabo ongasekho ukuze aphile. Kodwa uPetru akaguquguquki. Ekugcineni, osizini lwakhe nokungakwazi ukuzisiza, uPawulu ufunga kanje kuye: “Ukube ubunodadewenu othanda njengoba ngimthanda udadewethu futhi ongambuyisa kwelinye izwe, ubungangiqonda futhi ungisize!” La mazwi ayanyakazisa uPetru. Ukhumbula ukufa kukadadewabo omncane u-Ivana futhi uyaqonda ukuthi uNkulunkulu, ngalokhu kuhlangana, ngemva kweminyaka eminingi yokuphenduka, ekugcineni uzama ukumkhulula. Khona-ke uPetru uguqa ngamadolo wakhala kuNkulunkulu ukuba enze isimangaliso futhi abuyisele umphefumulo kadadewabo kaPawulu emhlabeni wabaphilayo. Lokhu kwenzeka ngehora lesine ntambama. UPavel uyambonga futhi ushiya iNtaba yaseStrandja.
Endleleni ebheke eSofia, ubaba uPavel akakwazanga ukuxhumana nonina ngoba ibhethri yocingo lwakhe yayifile, ngokuphuthuma kwakhe wakhohlwa ukuthatha ishaja. Ufika eSofia ekuseni kakhulu ngosuku olulandelayo. Uma efika ekhaya kuSofia, uthule, kodwa futhi ukhathele kangangokuthi uwela ephaseji futhi akafuni ukungena ekamelweni likadadewabo. Ekugcineni, uyesaba, angene futhi athole umbhede kaNikolina ungenalutho. Bese eqala ekhala. Akuphelanga sikhathi, umnyango uyavuleka angene umama wakhe angene naye ekamelweni. Uyamangala ngoba ubezitshela ukuthi uyedwa endlini. “Ngemva kokushona kukadadewenu futhi wahamba,” kumtshela unina, eqhaqhazela, “ngashayela ucingo kwa-911. Udokotela wafika wanquma ukufa futhi wabhala isitifiketi sokufa. Nokho angizange ngimshiye ngaqhubeka nokumbamba isandla sengathi usaphila. Wayengaphefumuli futhi ngangazi ukuthi engangikwenza kwakuhlanya, kodwa ngama eduze kwakhe. Bengimtshela ukuthi ngiyamthanda futhi nawe uyamthanda. Kwase kudlule ihora lesine ihora lesine lapho kwaba sengathi kukhona othi angimlande. Ngalalela ngamphakamisa kancane, futhi wa…wavula amehlo akhe! uyaqonda? Ushonile, udokotela wayekuqinisekisile, kodwa waphinde waphila!”
UPavel akakukholwa. Uyabuza ukuthi ukuphi uNikolina. Umama wakhe umtshela ukuthi usekhishini. UPavel ungena ekhishini, futhi ubona u-Nikolina ehlezi phambi kwetafula ephuza itiye.
