By Natalya Trauberg (inhlolokhono eyanikezwa ekwindla ka-2008 enikezwe Elena Borisova futhi Darja Litvak), Isazi esingu-2009(19), Meyi 19, 657
Ukuba umKristu kusho ukuzidela ngenxa yokuzuza umakhelwane wakho. Lokhu akuhlangene nehlelo elithile, kodwa kuncike kuphela ekukhetheni komuntu siqu ngakho-ke akunakwenzeka ukuthi kube yinto enkulu.
U-Natalia Trauberg ungumhumushi ovelele osuka esiNgisini, isiFulentshi, iSpanishi, isiPutukezi nesiNtaliyane. Indoda eyembulela umfundi waseRussia umcabango ongumKristu uGilbert Chesterton, umlweli wokholo uClive Lewis, imidlalo yevangeli kaDorothy Sayers, uGraham Greene odabukisayo, uWodehouse omnene, uPaul Gallico wezingane noFrances Burnett. ENgilandi, uTrauberg wayebizwa ngokuthi "Madame Chesterton". ERussia, wayengundelakazi uJoanna, ilungu lebhodi le-Bible Society kanye nebhodi labahleli bephephabhuku elithi "Foreign Literature", elisakazwa emsakazweni "Sofia" kanye "noRadonezh", efundiswa e-Biblical-Theological Institute of St. Umphostoli u-Andreya.
U-Natalia Leonidovna wayethanda ukukhuluma ngalokho uChesterton akubiza ngokuthi “ubuKristu nje”: hhayi ngokuhlehla “ebungcweleni bobaba abangcwele,” kodwa ngempilo yobuKristu nemizwa yobuKristu lapha namanje, kulezo zimo nasendaweni esibekwe kuyo. Mayelana noChesterton kanye noSayers, wake wabhala: “Kwakungekho lutho kubo olususa umuntu “empilweni yenkolo” - amandla adonsela phansi, noma ubumnandi, noma ukungabekezelelani. Futhi manje, lapho “imvubelo yabaFarisi” iphinda iba namandla, izwi labo libaluleke kakhulu, liyoba namandla kakhulu. Namuhla la mazwi angashiwo ngokuphelele kuye kanye nezwi lakhe.
Kwenzeka ukuthi u-Natalia Trauberg wanikeza enye yezingxoxo zakhe zokugcina kumagazini we-Expert.
U-Natalia Leonidovna, ngokumelene nesizinda senkinga engokomoya esintwini, abaningi balindele ukuvuselelwa kobuKristu. Ngaphezu kwalokho, kukholelwa ukuthi yonke into izoqala eRussia, ngoba yi-Russian Orthodoxy equkethe ukugcwala kobuKristu emhlabeni wonke. Ucabangani ngakho?
Kubonakala kimi ukuthi ukukhuluma ngokuqondana kweRussia kanye ne-Orthodoxy kuwukuhlazeka koBunkulunkulu noPhakade. Futhi uma siqala ukuphikisa ngokuthi ubuKristu baseRussia buyinto ebaluleke kakhulu emhlabeni, khona-ke sinezinkinga ezinkulu ezisibiza ngokuthi singamaKristu. Mayelana nezivuselelo… Azikaze zenzeke emlandweni. Kube nezikhalazo ezinkulu uma kuqhathaniswa. Isibalo esithile sabantu sake sacabanga ukuthi akukho okuhle okuphuma emhlabeni, futhi salandela u-Anthony Omkhulu ukubaleka ogwadule, nakuba uKristu, siphawula, wachitha izinsuku ezingamashumi amane kuphela ogwadule… Ekhulwini le-12, lapho i-mendican kwafika izindela, abaningi ngokuzumayo Baba nomuzwa wokuthi ukuphila kwabo ngandlela-thile kwakungqubuzana neVangeli, futhi baqala ukumisa iziqhingi ezihlukene, izindlu zezindela, ukuze kube ngokuhambisana neVangeli. Bese becabanga futhi: kukhona okungahambi kahle. Futhi banquma ukungazami ogwadule, hhayi esigodlweni sezindela, kodwa emhlabeni ukuze baphile eduze neVangeli, kodwa bevinjwe umhlaba ngezifungo. Nokho, lokhu akuwuthinti kakhulu umphakathi.
Ngama-70s eSoviet Union, abantu abaningi baya esontweni, ingasaphathwa eyeminyaka yama-90s. Kuyini lokhu uma kungewona umzamo wokuvuselela?
Ngama-70s, i-intelligentsia, ngomqondo ongokomfanekiso, yeza esontweni. Futhi lapho “ephenduka,” umuntu wayengabona ukuthi wayengabonisi nje izimfanelo zobuKristu kuphela, kodwa, njengoba kwenzeka, wayeka nokubonisa izimfanelo zokuhlakanipha.
Kusho ukuthini - uhlakaniphile?
Yikuphi okuzalanisa okuthile kobuKristu: ukuba mnene, ukubekezela, ukungazibambeli wena, ukunganqamuli ikhanda lomunye, nokunye… Iyiphi indlela yezwe yokuphila? Lokhu "ngifuna", "isifiso", lokho eVangelini okubizwa ngokuthi "inkanuko", "inkanuko". Futhi umuntu wezwe uphila ngendlela athanda ngayo. Ngakho nakhu. Ekuqaleni kwawo-70, abantu abaningi ababefunde uBerdyaev noma u-Averintsev baqala ukuya esontweni. Kodwa ucabangani? Baziphatha njengakuqala, njengoba befuna: ukusunduza isixuku, basunduzele wonke umuntu eceleni. Bacishe bamdabula abe yizicucu u-Averintsev enkulumweni yakhe yokuqala, nakuba kulesi sifundo ukhuluma ngezinto ezilula zevangeli: ubumnene nokubekezela. Futhi, badudulana kude: “Mina! Ngifuna ucezu lwe-Averintsev! Yiqiniso, ungakwazi ukuqaphela konke lokhu futhi uphenduke. Kodwa bangaki abantu oye wababona abeza ukuphenduka hhayi kuphela ngenxa yokuphuza noma ukuphinga? Ukuphenduka ekuphingeni kwamukelekile, lesi ukuphela kwesono abasikhumbulayo futhi abasiqaphelayo, okuyinto, nokho, engabavimbeli ekushiyeni amakhosikazi abo kamuva… Futhi ukuthi isono esikhulu kakhulu ukuziqhenya, ukubaluleka, ukungabekezeleli kanye nokoma nabantu , ukuthuka, ukudelela...
Kubonakala sengathi iVangeli futhi lithi ngokuqinile kakhulu mayelana nokuphinga kwabashadile?
Sekushiwo. Kodwa akulona lonke iVangeli elizinikele kulokhu. Kunengxoxo eyodwa emangalisayo lapho abaphostoli bengakwazi ukwamukela amazwi kaKristu okuthi ababili kufanele babe nyamanye. Bayabuza: kungenzeka kanjani lokhu? Ingabe lokhu akunakwenzeka kubantu? Futhi uMsindisi uyembula lemfihlo kubo, uthi umshado wangempela uyisibopho esiphelele, futhi wenezela ngesihe esikhulu: “Noma ubani ongamukela, makamamukele.” Okungukuthi, noma ubani ongaqonda uzoqonda. Ngakho baphendukela phansi yonke into baze babeka nomthetho emazweni amaKatolika wokuthi awukwazi ukudivosa. Kodwa zama ukwenza umthetho ongakwazi ukuwumemeza. Kodwa uKristu ukhuluma ngalokhu ngaphambili kakhulu: “Othukuthelela umfowabo ngeze ungaphansi kokwahlulelwa.
Kuthiwani uma kungelona ize, kodwa iphuzu?
Angisona isazi seBhayibheli esihle, kodwa ngiqinisekile ukuthi igama elithi “ize” lapha liwukuhunyushwa. UKristu akazange aphimisele. Ngokuvamile isusa yonke inkinga, ngoba noma ubani othukuthele futhi amemeze uyaqiniseka ukuthi akakwenzi ize. Kodwa kuthiwa uma “umfowenu ekona, msole ninodwa naye.” Ngedwa. Ngesizotha nangokucophelela, njengoba ungathanda ukuvezwa. Futhi uma lowo muntu engezwanga, engafuni ukuzwa, “…khona-ke thatha umfowenu oyedwa noma ababili” futhi ukhulume naye futhi. Futhi ekugcineni, uma engabalalelanga, khona-ke uyakuba “njengomhedeni nomthelisi” kini.
Okusho ukuthi, njengesitha?
Cha. Lokhu kusho ukuthi: makafane nomuntu ongaluqondi lolu hlobo lwengxoxo. Bese usuka eceleni unikeze uNkulunkulu indawo. Lesi sisho - "vula indawo kaNkulunkulu" - siphindaphindwa emiBhalweni ngokuphindaphindiwe okungathandeki. Kodwa bangaki abantu obabonile abezwa la mazwi? Bangaki abantu esibabonile abeza esontweni babona ukuthi: “Anginalutho, anginalutho ngaphandle kobuwula, ukuzidla, izifiso kanye nesifiso sokuziqinisa... Nkosi, ukubekezelela kanjani lokhu? Ngisize ngithuthuke!” Phela umnyombo wobuKrestu wukuthi buphendulela wonke umuntu phansi. Kukhona igama elivela kwelesiGrikhi elithi "metanoia" - ukuguqulwa kokucabanga. Lapho yonke into ebhekwa njengebalulekile emhlabeni - inhlanhla, ithalenta, ingcebo, izimfanelo ezinhle zomuntu - iyayeka ukuba yigugu. Noma yisiphi isazi sokusebenza kwengqondo sizokutshela: kholelwa kuwe. Nasesontweni awumuntu. Akekho, kodwa othandekayo kakhulu. Lapho umuntu, njengendodana yolahleko, uphendukela kuyise – kuNkulunkulu. Uza kuye ukuze athole intethelelo kanye nohlobo oluthile lokuba khona, okungenani egcekeni likayise. Uyise, empofu emoyeni, uyamkhothamela, akhale amdedele aye phambili.
Ngakho isho ukuthini inkulumo ethi “abampofu emoyeni”?
Yebo, yebo. Wonke umuntu uyacabanga: kungenzeka kanjani lokhu? Kodwa kungakhathaliseki ukuthi ukuhumusha kanjani, konke kufika eqinisweni lokuthi abanalutho. Umuntu wezwe uhlala enokuthile: ithalenta lami, umusa wami, isibindi sami. Kodwa laba abanalutho: bathembele kuNkulunkulu kukho konke. Bafana nezingane. Kodwa hhayi ngoba izingane ziyizidalwa ezinhle, ezihlanzekile, njengoba ezinye izazi zokusebenza kwengqondo zisho, kodwa ngenxa yokuthi ingane ayinakuzisiza ngokuphelele. Akakho ngaphandle kukayise, ngeke akwazi ukudla, ngeke afunde ukukhuluma. Nabampofu emoyeni banjalo. Ukuza ebuKristwini kusho ukuthi inani elithile labantu lizophila impilo engenakwenzeka ngokombono wezwe. Yiqiniso, kuzokwenzeka futhi ukuthi umuntu uzoqhubeka nokwenza okujwayelekile kithi, okudabukisayo, okungajabulisi futhi okuhlekisayo. Angadakwa njengehhashi elimpunga. Ningase nithandane ngesikhathi esingafanele. Ngokuvamile, yonke into yomuntu kuye iyosala. Kodwa kuyofanele abale izenzo nemicabango yakhe kuKristu. Futhi uma umuntu ekwamukela, wavula hhayi inhliziyo yakhe kuphela, kodwa futhi ingqondo yakhe, khona-ke ukuguqulwa ebuKristwini kwenzeka.
Ukucwasana esikhundleni sothando
Iningi lamaKristu liyazi ngobukhona bezinkolo ezehlukene, abanye banentshisekelo yokuhlukana kwezincwadi zeBhayibheli. Ingabe lokhu kunendaba ekuphileni kwansuku zonke komKristu?
Ngicabanga ukuthi cha. Kungenjalo, kuvele ukuthi ngesikhathi sifika esontweni, savele safika esikhungweni esisha. Yebo, kumnandi, yebo, kukhona ukucula okumnandi lapho. Kodwa kuyingozi kakhulu uma bethi: bathi, ngithanda ibandla elithi nakanje, ngoba bacula kahle lapho… Kungaba ngcono uma bengathula, ngokweqiniso, ngoba uKristu akazange acule ndawo. Uma abantu beza esontweni, bazithola besesikhungweni lapho yonke into ihlukile.
Lokhu kuhle. Futhi eqinisweni?
Eqinisweni, lokhu kuvame kakhulu namuhla: eyethu ingeyakho. Ubani opholile - amaKatolika noma ama-Orthodox? Noma mhlawumbe i-schismatics. Abalandeli bakaBaba u-Alexander Men noma uBaba uGeorgy Kochetkov. Konke kuhlukaniswe ngamaqoqo amancane. Kwabanye, iRussia iyisithonjana sikaKristu, kwabanye, ngokuphambene nalokho, akuyona isithonjana. Kuvamile futhi phakathi kwabaningi bethu, akunjalo? Ngathatha isidlo, ngaphumela emgwaqeni, futhi ngidelela wonke umuntu ongakajoyini ibandla. Kodwa saphuma saya kulabo uMsindisi asithuma kubo. Akasibizanga izigqila, kodwa wasibiza ngokuthi singabangane. Futhi uma ngenxa yemibono, izinkolelo kanye nesithakazelo siqala ukusabalalisa ukubola kulabo abangaphili ngokuvumelana "nomthetho" wethu, ngakho-ke asiwona amaKristu, ngempela. Noma kukhona isihloko sikaSemyon Frank, lapho ekhuluma ngobuhle bamasonto obu-Orthodox: yebo, sabona izwe lobuhle obumangalisayo futhi salithanda kakhulu, futhi saqaphela ukuthi lokhu kuyinto ebaluleke kakhulu emhlabeni, kodwa kukhona. abantu abasizungezile abangakuqondi lokhu. Futhi kunengozi yokuthi sizoqala ukulwa nabo. Futhi thina, ngeshwa, sihamba sibheke kuleli cala. Isibonelo, indaba yesimangaliso soMlilo oNgcwele. Ukucabanga ukuthi thina, amaKristu angama-Orthodox, singcono kakhulu, ngoba kithi kuphela, ngePhasika lethu, uMlilo Ongcwele uvela, futhi wonke umuntu - fuck, lokhu kuyamangalisa! Kuvela ukuthi abantu abazalelwa eFrance, lapho kukhona ubuKatolika, banqatshelwe uNkulunkulu. Kuvela kuNkulunkulu, othi umKristu kumelwe, njengelanga kumuntu, akhanye okulungile nokungalungile! Konke lokhu kuhlangene ngani nezindaba ezinhle? Futhi kuyini lokhu uma kungeyona imidlalo yephathi?
Empeleni, ingabe lobu buzenzisi?
Yebo. Kodwa uma uKristu engazange athethelele muntu, khona-ke kuphela “abazibona belungile,” okungukuthi, abaFarisi. Awukwazi ukwakha impilo ngokweVangeli usebenzisa umthetho: ayingeni, lena akuyona i-Euclidean geometry. Futhi siyawajabulela amandla kaNkulunkulu. Kodwa kungani? Ziningi izinkolo ezinjalo. Noma iyiphi inkolo yobuqaba ibabaza amandla kaNkulunkulu, imilingo. U-Alexander Schmemann uyabhala, yebo, mhlawumbe babhala ngaphambili, ukuthi ubuKristu akuyona inkolo, kodwa ukuxhumana komuntu siqu noKristu. Kodwa kwenzekani? Nazi izinsizwa, ezimomothekayo, ezikhulumayo, eziya eSidlweni… Futhi emva kwabo kukhona izalukazi ezinezinti, emva kokuhlinzwa. Futhi kwakungeke kuvele ukuthi abafana bageje ogogo. Futhi lokhu ngemva nje kwenkonzo, lapho konke kwaphinde kwashiwo! Angizange ngiye kothatha isidlo izikhathi eziningana ngenxa yentukuthelo nhlobo. Futhi emsakazweni i-“Radonezh”, okuvame ukuba ngeSonto, utshele abalaleli: “Bafo, namuhla angidlanga sidlo ngenxa yenu.” Ngoba ubheka, futhi kakade emphefumulweni wakho kukhona okwenzekayo ukuthi, hhayi nje ukuthatha isidlo, kodwa futhi nokuba namahloni ukubheka esontweni. Isidlo asisona isenzo somlingo. Lesi iSidlo Sakusihlwa Sokugcina, futhi uma uzile ukuzogubha Naye ubusuku obugujwa phakade manje ngaphambi kokufa Kwakhe, zama ukuzwa okungenani into eyodwa uKristu ayenezela eTestamenteni Elidala futhi eyaguqula yonke into yabheka phansi: “… nithandane. , njengoba ngikuthanda…»
Ibinzana elivame ukucashunwa lithi “Ungakwenzi ongafuni ukukwenza.”
Yebo, ukuthanda wonke umuntu olungile kusho lo mthetho wegolide. Kunengqondo impela: ungakwenzi lokhu futhi uzosindiswa. I-matrix yeTestamente Elidala, kamuva eyathathwa yi-Islam. Futhi uthando lobuKristu luyisihawu esidabukisayo. Ungase ungamthandi nhlobo umuntu. Angase anyanye ngokuphelele kuwe. Kodwa uyaqonda ukuthi, ngaphandle kukaNkulunkulu, yena, njengawe, akanaso isivikelo. Kukangaki sibona isihawu esingaka ngisho nasebandleni lethu? Ngeshwa, ngisho nale ndawo ezweni lethu ayikajabulisi. Ngisho negama elithi “uthando” ngokwalo selivele lihlehlisiwe kulo. Esongela amantombazane esihogweni somlilo ngokukhipha izisu, umpristi uthi: “Futhi into eyinhloko uthando…” Uma uzwa lokhu, ngisho nokungamelani ngokuphelele, kunesifiso sokuthatha iklabhu enhle futhi...
Ukukhipha isisu akubi yini?
Okubi. Kodwa ziyizinto zangasese ezijulile. Futhi uma umsebenzi oyinhloko wobuKristu uwukulwa nokukhipha isisu, khona-ke kukhona ukukhanga kulokhu - ekuqondeni kokuqala kwegama. Ake sithi intombazane ethile ifuna uthando, njenganoma yimuphi umuntu ovamile, futhi izithola isesimweni lapho kwakunzima ukubeletha. Futhi umpristi umtshela ukuthi uma efa ngesikhathi sokukhipha isisu, uzoya esihogweni ngokushesha. Futhi ushaya phansi ngonyawo amemeze: “Ngeke ngiye kunoma yiliphi lamasonto enu!” Futhi wenza okufanele ngokunyathela. Hhayi-ke suka Mkristu hamba uyenqabela ukuhushula izisu uthuse amantombazane azwile ukuthi akukho okungaphezu kokuthandana futhi awukwazi ukwala noma ngubani ngoba yindala, noma engeyena ubuKristu, noma noma yini. Kubi, kodwa amaKhatholika anemikhuba enjalo...
Kuthiwani ngama-Orthodox?
Sinokuningi ngakolunye uhlangothi: babuza ukuthi kungenzeka yini ukugcina izinja endlini lapho izithonjana zilenga khona, futhi esinye sezihloko eziyinhloko ukuzila ukudla. Ezinye izinto ezingajwayelekile zobuqaba. Ngikhumbula ngisaqala ukusakaza esiteshini esincane somsakazo wesonto, bangibuza umbuzo: “Ngicela ungitshele, ingabe kuyisono esikhulu uma ngidla ngaphambi kwenkanyezi ngobusuku obandulela uKhisimusi?” Ngacishe ngakhihla isililo ngaleso sikhathi emoyeni ngakhuluma amahora amabili ngalento esikhuluma ngayo manje.
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Pho singenzani lapha?
Kodwa akukho lutho oluthusa kangaka ngakho. Lapho isikhathi eside singenawo umqondo wesono, bese siqala ukwamukela noma yini njengesono ngaphandle kokuzithanda, “amandla okuphila,” intando yethu, ukuzethemba ekulungeni nasekukhuthazeleni kwethu, kudingeka siqale. konke futhi. Abaningi kwadingeka baqale phansi. Futhi onezindlebe zokuzwa makezwe. Lapha, isibonelo, u-Augustine Obusisiwe, osanta omkhulu. Wayehlakaniphile, edumile, enomsebenzi omuhle kakhulu, uma siwulinganisa ngokwemibandela yethu. Kodwa impilo yaba nzima kuye, okuyinto ejwayelekile kakhulu.
Kusho ukuthini: kwaba nzima ngo-Augustine ukuphila?
Yilapho uqala ukubona ukuthi kukhona okungahambi kahle. Namuhla abantu bayawukhulula lo muzwa ngokuya esontweni elihle futhi balalele ukucula okumnandi. Yiqiniso, ngokuvamile baqala ukukuzonda konke noma ukuba abazenzisi, bengakaze bakuzwe lokho uKristu akusho. Kodwa kwakungenjalo ngo-Augustine. Umngane weza kuye wathi: “Bheka, Augustine, nakuba singososayensi, siphila njengeziwula ezimbili. Sifuna ukuhlakanipha, futhi akukho lutho.” U-Augustine wajabula kakhulu futhi wagijimela engadini. Futhi ngezwa kwenye indawo: “Yithathe uyifunde!” Kubonakala sengathi lo mfana ubememeza othile emgwaqweni. Futhi u-Augustine wezwa ukuthi kwakungenxa yakhe. Wagijima wangena ekamelweni wavula iVangeli. Futhi ngahlangana nomyalezo kaPawulu, ngala mazwi: “Gqokani iNkosi uJesu Kristu futhi ningaphenduki ukukhathazeka kwenyama kube izinkanuko. Imishwana elula: ziphike futhi uthathe isiphambano, futhi ungaguquli ukukhathazeka ngawe kube izifiso zakho ezingenangqondo, futhi uqonde ukuthi umthetho wezwe obaluleke kakhulu emhlabeni - ukwenza lokho ekhanda lami noma, angazi ukuthi yini enye. , okufunwayo - akusikho okomKristu akusho lutho. La mazwi amshintsha ngokuphelele u-Augustine.
Konke kubonakala kulula. Kodwa kungani umuntu engavamile ukuziphika?
UbuKristu empeleni abukhululekile neze. Ake sithi bavumela othile ukuba abe umphathi, futhi kumelwe acabange ukuthi kunzima kakhulu ukuziphatha njengomKristu esimweni esinjalo. Yeka ukuhlakanipha akudingayo! Yeka umusa odingekayo! Kufanele acabange ngawo wonke umuntu njengaye, futhi ngokufanelekile, njengoba uKristu enza kubantu. Kufanele azibeke esikhundleni sawo wonke umuntu ohamba ngaphansi kwakhe futhi amnakekele. Noma, ngiyakhumbula, bangibuza ukuthi kungani, lapho ngithola ithuba elinjalo, ngingafuduki. Ngaphendula: “Ngoba kungabulala abazali bami. Bebengeke balokothe bahambe futhi bebezohlala lapha, bebadala, begula futhi benesizungu.” Futhi sinokukhetha okufanayo kuzo zonke izinyathelo. Isibonelo, othile ovela ngenhla ugcwale indlu yakho, futhi akanayo imali yokukunxephezela ngokulungisa... Ungammangalela noma uqale ukuxabana naye bese wenza impilo yakhe ibe yingozi. Noma ungashiya yonke into njengoba injalo, bese kuthi, uma kuvela ithuba, lungisa ngokwakho. Ungaphinda uyeke ithuba lakho… Thula, ungabalulekile… Ungacasuki… Izinto ezilula kakhulu. Futhi isimangaliso sokuzalwa kabusha sizokwenzeka kancane kancane. UNkulunkulu wahlonipha umuntu ngenkululeko, futhi yithina kuphela, ngokuthanda kwethu, esingagqashula. Khona-ke uKristu uyokwenza konke. Sidinga nje, njengoba uLewis abhala, ukuthi singesabi ukuvula izikhali esiboshwe ngazo futhi simvumele angene ezinhliziyweni zethu. Lo mzamo uwodwa ushintsha impilo ngokuphelele futhi uyinikeze ukubaluleka, incazelo kanye nenjabulo. Futhi lapho umPhostoli uPawulu ethi “Jabulani njalo!”, wayesho injabulo enjalo - ezindaweni eziphakeme zomoya.
Wathi futhi “lilani nabakhalayo”...
Into ukuthi yilabo abakwaziyo ukukhala kuphela abangajabula. Uhlanganyela usizi nosizi lwabo nalabo abakhala futhi akakubalekeli ukuhlupheka. UKristu uthi babusisiwe abalilayo. Ukubusiswa kusho ukujabula nokuba nakho konke ukuphila okugcwele. Futhi izithembiso Zakhe akuzona ezasezulwini, kodwa zasemhlabeni. Yebo, ukuhlupheka kubi. Nokho, lapho abantu behlupheka, uKristu uyanikeza: “Zanini Kimi nina nonke enihluphekayo nenisindwayo, mina ngizakuniphumuza.” Kodwa kunombandela munye: Bekani ijoka lami phezu kwenu, niyakufumana ukuphumula kwemiphefumulo yenu. Futhi umuntu uthola ukuthula ngempela. Ngaphezu kwalokho, kukhona ukuthula okujulile, futhi akufani nhlobo nokuthi uzohambahamba sengathi uqandisiwe: uvele aqale ukuphila hhayi ngokuyize, hhayi ngokudideka. Bese kuthi-ke isimo soMbuso kaNkulunkulu sifike lapha futhi manje. Futhi mhlawumbe, ngemva kokuyifunda, singakwazi ukusiza nabanye. Futhi nansi into ebaluleke kakhulu. UbuKristu akuyona indlela yokusindiswa. UmKristu akuyena osindiswayo, kodwa nguye osindisayo.
Okusho ukuthi, kufanele ashumayele futhi asize umakhelwane wakhe?
Hhayi kuphela. Okubaluleke kakhulu, wethula into encane yohlobo oluhlukile lwempilo emhlabeni. Unkulunkulu wami, umzanyana wami, wethula into enjalo. Futhi ngeke ngikwazi ukukhohlwa ukuthi ngambona umuntu onjalo futhi ngiyamazi. Wayesondelene kakhulu neVangeli. Eyinceku engenamali, wayephila njengomKristu ophelele. Akazange alimaze muntu, akakaze asho nezwi elihlambalazayo. Ngikhumbula kanye kuphela… Ngangisemncane, abazali bami baya ndawana thize, futhi ngangibabhalela izincwadi nsuku zonke, njengoba sasivumelene. Futhi owesifazane othile owayesivakashele uyakubheka lokhu futhi athi: “Awu, kanjani ukubhekana nomuzwa wemfanelo wengane? Ungalokothi mntanami wenze noma yini ongafuni ukuyenza. Futhi uzoba umuntu ojabulayo.” Futhi emva kwalokho umzanyana wami waphaphatheka futhi wathi: “Ngicela usixolele. Wena unomuzi wakho, nathi sinowethu." Ngakho kanye empilweni yami yonke ngezwa izwi elibuhlungu livela kuye.
Ingabe umndeni wakho, abazali, behlukile?
Ugogo wami, uMarya Petrovna, naye akazange aliphakamise izwi. Wasishiya isikole ayesebenza kuso njengothisha ngoba kwakumele akhulume izinto eziphambene nenkolo. Ngesikhathi umkhulu esaphila, wayehamba eduze kwakhe njengenkosikazi yangempela: egqoke isigqoko nejazi elisemthethweni. Wabe esehlala nathi. Futhi kwakungelula kuye, umuntu oqinile kakhulu, ngokusobala ngokohlobo, nathi, abantu abanganaki. Nangu umama wami, indodakazi yakhe, nangu umyeni wakhe ongashadile, umqondisi wefilimu kanye ne-bohemian jikelele… Ugogo akakaze athi ungumJuda, ngoba umKristu ojwayelekile akanakuba umuntu omelene namaSemite. Futhi yeka indlela ahlupheka ngayo nami! Mina, i-cretin eneminyaka eyishumi nesikhombisa engayanga esikoleni, ngaya enyuvesi futhi lapho ngacishe ngahlanya ngenjabulo, impumelelo, ngiqala ukuthandana… Futhi uma ukhumbula zonke izinto eziwubulima engazenza! Ngathandana futhi ngantshontsha indandatho yomshado kamkhulu, ngikholelwa ukuthi imizwa emikhulu enganginayo inginika ilungelo lokuhlohla le ndandatho ngoboya bekotini, ngiyifake emunweni wami futhi ngihambe ngayo. Umzanyana mhlawumbe ubengasho ngokuphansi, kodwa ugogo ubezosho kabuhlungu: “Ungakwenzi lokhu. Umbhedo.”
Futhi ingabe lokhu kunzima?
Kuyena - kakhulu. Futhi umama, ukuze ngigqoke ngendlela efashisayo kakhulu kunalokho engangikucabanga ngemva kokukhuliswa kukagogo nomzanyana, wayekwazi ukushayisa ikhanda lami odongeni ukuze afakazele okuthile kimi. Kodwa yena, ehlushwa impilo ye-bohemian, futhi engaziwa kuye ngenxa yokukhuliswa kwakhe, okuyinto yena, nokho, aphoqeleka ukuba ayihole, ayikwazi ukwahlulelwa. Futhi wayehlale ekholelwa ukuthi kufanele angiyekise okholweni, njengoba ngangizilimaza. Ngisho noMessinga wangimema ukuthi ngibuyise ingqondo. Cha, akazange alwe nobuKristu, waqonda nje ukuthi kuzoba nzima endodakazini yakhe. Futhi hhayi ngoba sasihlala eSoviet Union, lapho bamemezela khona ukuthi uNkulunkulu akekho. Kunoma yiliphi ikhulu leminyaka, abazali bazama ukuyekisa izingane zabo ebuKristwini.
Ngisho nasemikhayeni yamaKristu?
Ngokwesibonelo, u-Anthony the Great, uSt. Theodosius, uCatherine waseSiena, uFrancis wase-Assisi… Zonke izindaba ezine zinabazali abangamaKristu. Futhi konke mayelana neqiniso lokuthi zonke izingane zingabantu njengabantu, futhi ingane yami i-cretin. UTheodosius akafuni ukugqoka ngendlela ehlakaniphile njengoba kufanele ekilasini lakhe, futhi unikela amandla amaningi nesikhathi ezenzweni ezinhle. UCatherine unakekela abagulayo nabampofu nsuku zonke, elala ihora lonke ngosuku, esikhundleni sokuphuma nabangane bakhe futhi anakekele indlu. UFrancis uyenqaba ukuphila okujabulisayo kanye nefa likayise… Izinto ezinjalo bezilokhu zibhekwa njengezingajwayelekile. Manje, lapho imiqondo "impumelelo", "umsebenzi", "inhlanhla" isibe isilinganiso senjabulo, ngisho nangokwengeziwe. Ukudonsa komhlaba kunamandla kakhulu. Lokhu cishe akukaze kwenzeke: "yima ekhanda lakho," ngokusho kukaChesterton, futhi uphile kanjalo.
Liyini iphuzu kukho konke lokhu uma abambalwa kuphela beba amaKristu?
Kodwa akukho okukhulu okwakucatshangwa. Akuzange kube ngenhlanhla ukuthi uKristu akhulume amazwi anjalo: "imvubelo", "usawoti". Izilinganiso ezincane kangaka. Kodwa bashintsha yonke into, bashintsha impilo yakho yonke. Gcina ukuthula. Babamba noma yimuphi umndeni, ngisho nowodwa lapho sebefinyelele khona ehlazweni eliphelele: endaweni ethile, othile, onohlobo oluthile lwemikhuleko, nohlobo oluthile lwesenzo. Lapho, umhlaba wonke walokhu okungavamile ekuboneni kokuqala uyavuleka: uma kulula, kwenze, lapho kunzima, khuluma, lapho kungenakwenzeka, thandaza. Futhi iyasebenza.
Futhi futhi ukuthobeka, ngosizo olulodwa kuphela onganqoba ububi obunqobayo nxazonke.
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